-A mostly true journey of a girl, her man and their three kids; all trying to live harmoniously in a house somewhere in Utah. Names and exact locations may be changed in order to protect the grouchy.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Ladies and Gentlemen, step right up......

Welcome to the circus!!

For the main attraction, witness the delicate balancing act of the Mrs...

Watch as she juggles too many things in the air while walking the tight rope of sanity. Oh, how does she do it?

Deadlines. Errands. Cooking. Cleaning. Laundry....spinning in the air with the greatest of ease...

Look closely as the Mrs. maintains her balance just in time for the children to add in delicate plates full of plans of all the final activities piling up at the end of the school year...

Be amazed as her man throws in the mix a bowling ball with the name of the company that just bought his out....

She's still hanging on!!

Oh, but here comes the chainsaw, roaring with too many doctor's appointments and procedures and follow-ups and referrals... Yes Sir. Focus on that axe!! Look how it's changing things up with never-ending bad news. Amazing.

And way over there, folks, are her friends, the flying trapeze artists. Watch as they smile, asking her to join them. With every graceful pass by, she wonders what would happen if she just dropped everything... or just a few things.... maybe...

No. The Mrs. knows better. She's experienced enough to know that the second she finds balance, the mighty sword throwers will join in- the ones who remind her that she has neglected family, forgotten to return phone calls, e-mails and knocks at the door.

The Mrs. holds focuses deeply because she knows eventually, everyone will stop watching the balancing act. The lights will shut off and she will be alone with her thoughts. At first, she'll savor the time she has left, hoping that daylight takes a little longer to return... because with morning, the big top goes back up and it all starts over.

But this is her job. The audience will continue to ooh and ahh. A little of that praise embarrassingly drives her. The man works tirelessly to lighten the weight of the bowling balls. The children tiptoe with the delicate plates, worried of seeing their juggling-tight rope-walking star become overwhelmed. She has already, unknowingly, set those nervous children up to walk small tightropes of their own.

Quiet now... Watch carefully as the Mrs. gets ready to take center ring. She has always been very good at painting on a smile. She knows that people came to see it. She also knows that some of the audience finds the drama a little too perfect. They secretly hope she'll fail at this balancing act. Wouldn't it be a beautiful disaster to watch such a professional fall from so high?

No matter. She keeps going, concentrating..trying. What the audience doesn't know, is that if she falls, it will be okay. Sure, it will be a huge mess. There will be a lot of things to sort through; to piece back together. She knows that the man and the kids, the fly-by friends and even a few sword throwers will help her back on her feet. They always do. They will all get back up, take their places and start over.

The show must go on.

Happy weekend, friends.

3 comments:

  1. This made me very sad to read. Cut a little too deep. Yet, I'm in the same place. The very same place. I keep waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel...keep waiting with me.

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  2. Thank you to everyone for your kind phone calls and e-mails. It's just a lull and I'll get over it soon. I'm blessed by all the beautiful trapeze artists in my life :) Love to each one of you.

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  3. Shellybean, You're an amazing person. This is just a small rough patch in your life.. It will get better! And I know that you will get through it with ease. You are talented and amazing in every way, and no matter what life throws at you, I know that you'll handle it without any effort. You have an excellent talent for handling difficult situations. I just want to let you know that I feel so blessed to know you, and that whenever you feel down, just keep strong and remember how many people truly love you and appreciate you! God brought you to it, therefore, He'll bring you through it.
    Love you! :)

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